What A difference A Day Makes

Lilly Pond at HerstmonceuxYesterday Roland left a comment saying “We never really know where we are going, do we!” And today I have been starkly reminded of that. My experience could hardly be more different than it was yesterday. I am a bit in shock I think.

I can hardly bear to write about it, so surreal it seems.

Last night someone was shot and murdered about 30 feet from my bedroom window. Today the road is cordoned off and police are crawling around on their hands and knees. I can’t quite take it in.

I have been  busy a lot of the day and away from the house but every time I come back I find myself thinking about it and about what might have been. What if my son had been walking home at that time as he often is on a Saturday? What if the bullets had come this way?

Yesterday I wrote “and my mind spins off to the miracle of being alive right now” and I can’t help but think of the man who is no longer here to experience the miracle and of his family whose lives have been irrevocably changed in an instant.

I’m not sure I should be writing this post. Is it inappropriate? Is it something I should keep to myself and not “burden” others with? I just don’t know but, today this is the reality of where I am.

There is no pithy conclusion to end with.

Life is fragile and I am so very grateful for this day.

 

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  1. Dicken Bettinger - 20 May, 2013 Reply

    Gillian,
    I am so sorry for this tragedy that happened so close to home. Every thought that you are having is “appropriate” because it has come into your mind. I too have often experienced a wide range of emotions in the face of tragedy. My understanding doesn’t prevent this process, it actually makes it easier to not interfere and just let it flow through naturally. I actually now experience all of these feelings more fully. Understanding helps me truly know that the wisdom behind life will always bring me back to healing and health the more I stay out of the way.
    Sending you lots of love,
    Dicken

    • Gillian - 20 May, 2013 Reply

      Thanks so much for your kind and wise words Dicken. It’s good to be reminded: “the wisdom behind life will always bring me back to healing and health the more I stay out of the way.”

      Much love to you and yours
      Gillian

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